Reach for what you can depend on

Very recently, I found myself dealing with a situation that I never thought I would be in. It was one of those situations that makes you numb, flusters every thought that enters your mind, makes your hands shake, and your heart ache. And no, I’m not talking about the controversy over my last blog post. I’m talking about life outside of the Internet (shocker). Out of respect for the other people involved, I won’t be completely transparent.

This situation cracked my confidence a bit. And it is a situation that will only get better with time, honesty, willingness, and love. But if anyone out there reading this knows me, they know that I am an optimist before anything else. And that has kicked my ass a time or two, but I have never regretted my desire to see the silver lining. And even with this terrible situation that I find myself trapped in the middle of, I found that silver lining. I found out that in order to persevere through times that kick you to the ground and rub the dirt right in your face, you have to reach for the things that you can depend on without an ounce of hesitation. You have to reach for the things that have never once let you down. So I reached for cheerleading. I nearly jumped for it, hoping it would catch me as I felt the rest of my life falling down all around me.

And it did. I have been miserable at practice while dealing with this situation, but somehow, it gets masked when I am with my team. It gets pushed to the back burner for those hours on the mats where I get to push myself to my limits, test the endurance of my body, and gratefully put my life into the hands of girls that I know would never let me fall. I find myself laughing, joking, encouraging others, and building new memories that help make new wounds feel less painful.

Everyone goes through times in their life where they want to call it quits, stay in bed for days with the curtain closed, and simply allow themselves to be sad. If you’re someone who never wants to do this when hard times come your way…. please tell me how you manage to do so, for you are much stronger than I am. But when life throws these curve balls your way that take so much energy out of you, remember to reach for the things you can depend on. Whether that be a sport, a family member, a good book, a piece of chocolate, a video game, a pen and a journal, an iPod and a pair of running shoes…. whatever works for you. Grab it. Use it to push you. Use it to make you better. And use it to help you get to the next great place in your life, because it’s there. That next great place is always there waiting for you. Not all bad situations in your life are acceptable, but I truly believe that they are all forgivable. You just have to believe that you can do whatever it takes in order to get to those places that you know deep down are worthwhile.

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11 thoughts on “Reach for what you can depend on

  1. NamelessChica says:

    Love love love this ❤

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  2. cheerdummy says:

    Thank you very much 🙂 It was a tough one to write but I’m glad I did.

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  3. Alyssa Menickelly says:

    Love you. ❤

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  4. Jillian Malley says:

    You’re a chode…just kidding… thought you might miss that one.. I love this katie. You are one of the strongest, most intelligent, bravest people I know and you inspire me everyday! I love you!

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  5. Devaney Dickerson says:

    Love this one lil guy, ❤ you. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, stand a little taller. (even though thats a little hard for you:) )

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  6. Sydney says:

    Katie! I love you and im glad you can use cheer and all of us as a way to get away from things. I use tumbling as my way to get over big things and also my family and cheer. You are a great person and deserve nothing but the best. I cant wait for syracuse because I get to share this competition with you, and also you get to see my life and what I have prepared for my whole life with. I cant believe this is your last year but you should know that this season, you have impacted my thoughts and helped me get over being scared to tumble on a nonspring floor. Never settle for anything but the best. Love you!(:

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    • cheerdummy says:

      Aw, thanks Syd. That means a lot to me. I can’t imagine having to overcome so many challenges with tumbling as you and so many others on the team do. I’m glad I have helped you just as you and the entire team have helped me ❤

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  7. emirico80 says:

    Love you Katie :]

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  8. Ellen Goldstein says:

    Very brave and honest. Don’t give in to the bad guys, but give yourself a little break.

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  9. sseth1220 says:

    Well said, Katie. I admire your resilience and perseverance, and its inspiring that your passion for cheering has allowed for you to manage the difficulties you’re dealing with. I think this post was something I needed to lift my spirits as well. Thanks for that!

    PS-Listen to Ellen and give yourself a break!

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  10. Miranda Zagorski says:

    ❤ love my flying midget

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